I dont think I dealt with rach pulling out either and now its all
starting to hit me, I put up a wall and now its just crumbling down and
the fear and sadness disappointment are all crashing through. Another
thing getting me down is my stupid AF ( tmi might apply here) Its just
horrible..after my lap last year it was great it went back to normal but
now i am flooding all over the place, I cant sit down and then get up
to walk without huge clots coming out...i can feel it .... I cant sleep
as I have to get up 5 times during the night and its doing my head in.
For someone who was told at the age of 25 I was going through menopause i
wish it would bloody hurry up and start. Bit of a me post and im sorry
about that but sometimes I feel better when i write things out and in
this case type 
My brother put together a little video of my little niece starting
school ( 4 Yo kindy)...she looked so cute and made me very teary...I
just hope one day soon we get to feel the joy of our little one starting
school....just gets so hard at times I did have another lady who wanted to help us but her husband decided he couldnt get his head around maybe one day if a child was born they could go and find their biological mother...or want to know more about her. I wish she had spoken in depth to her DH before approaching me...hopes being dashed all over again :(
This journey never gets easier :( On the adoption front we are still waiting for our time for appointment to the 1st seminar...i sent paper work way over 2 weeks ago argh!
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